Realizations

Ok, so just got done checking registration and realized that so far only 24 ppl have registered for life contingencies a courses needed to graduate with a degree in actuarial science....what does that mean, that the class i grew to love has diminished to more than half, who will i see September morning, who will become my friends this year and my old friends from last year will we still be close. So far I know a couple ppl i wont be seeing September morning, such as McKenzie the little nerd train that never got to succeed despite the amount of times he said 'i think he can', Marc who the stress got to, he added such charisma to the class it was said to see him go and Sean one of my close frens that was too afraid to try his hundred because he believe that he would fail. 
   Even after this yr, what will become of me, who will my frens be, most ppl will be graduating and i will have a next yr part time tho probably i will be working sigh!!! the courses i have left are comp sci, micro econ and cost and management, those are all level one courses at that time i will be a level 4 which doesn't even exist at uwi, im so scared and sadly rite now all my effort will be putting into getting a 2nd class degree honours and a gud gpa to qualify for a masters i dont even think i want to be an actuary i need help to accomplish such dreams i dnt know how to prepare for any of those professional exams...i need help probably me  and krystn can study for one, she wants to go abroad but i want to stay out here for awhile and get some work experience and stuff and feel settle but maybe being abroad will b gud experience. i dnt kno anything except JA, ma home and i do want to travel, so wats my answer.
   Hmm!! Im 21 this yr when i start my last part time yr i will be 22 and graduate at 23 gods willing, but where am i going in life? Hmm i need professionl exams thats for sure like the charted financial analyst exams and the act sci ones so yh. Hopefully after my 3yr yr i can do an exam in ma 4 th and another but which ones, i hear the CFA exams are easier and most first time jobs i will get is of that nature and i also will be working that summer at where i plan to work for awhile sadly when you think about it, this is my last free yr really and im scared of the fact that i need to grow up!!! I want to be comfortable in a job and getting good pay and can settle down with a beautiful man and i want him to be Jamaican but uptown with good looks so i need to update myself like lose some weight improve my skin and continue to grew out my hair. 
   Well lets see how can I get all of that, its hard to find a gud man that just doesn't only want u for sex but wants to marry u and have kids with you, you kno wat i mean. I hear it guds to find that special someone now in university so here's my plan. find hubby , finish 3rd yr, summer work ,do an exam, work full time and go to school which wud suck so you know what that means i need my licenses and a car, so i will need to find hubby and get a license and good grades, finish 3rd yr, summer job, exam, full time work, finish school, work experience, marry, baby, hmmm!!! but where is travelling and my masters degree in this???? I have a lot to figure out and a lot going on right now, Im getting an x-ray of ma ovaries so i can get to see whats going on, sigh hope i can have kids and everything is ok with down there, here's a tip for anyone that reads this, Any concerns even the littlest ones just ask a doctor its better to know now that later. PEACE!!!